Inspired by my experience of surgery, had another surgery yet again and this time it was some sort of monitored anesthesia been used, I could feel my whole body drifting away, my thoughts, my personality everything in some sort of psychedelic trance and the only thing that was sure for me was the sound of the ECG monitor reminding me that my heart still beats and i literally kept saying to myself my name again and again hoping to anchor myself to this plane. The beat of life is quite an amazing thing. It reminds us we alive and well and like they say once there is life there is hope.