You're an artist? You can't even draw! You are a blot on the canvas. For example, tylerxhobbs or dmitricherniak are great artists: technicality, originality, new ideas. You don't have any of that. So what if you had exhibitions at the Louvre and the Metropolitan?! Who didn't have them. So what if you are collected by the Russian Museum and the National Center for Contemporary Art?! Whom they just did not collect. The main criterion of value now is the price and demand. What is your price now? How many works have you sold? That's it. You are not an artist. You are nobody. You are mediocrity.