Fluffer Nutter

I'm literally shaking right now, I received a notification that the podcast would be now and but i cant find it .. I dont know what to do. I moved all the way from Australia to the USA so I could have the best connection to watch the podcast. Ive been studying Youtube videos every night for 3 weeks straight. I cant even sleep without dreaming about fluf podcasts. Im scared. Can you please help me. Im literally shaking so bad right now. Fluffy Business where are you. Please Fluffy Business . My son is crying in the other room and I cant speak to him. He looked at me and said "Father, why does the backend not hold up that well and where is the video?" and he's only 2 years old.. I cant look that kid in the face and tell him I can't find the podcast.. Im begging you . I skipped out on leg day for this...