God, this is the most difficult description I've ever written, for the most morally difficult job. It's very hard to collect my thoughts. There are situations in life when outwardly you tell everyone that everything is fine and you smile, and at this moment the pain from the inside devours and kills. When only emptiness remains from feelings… When there is only one question in my head-"Why me?"
The pain is so strong that you no longer see the meaning in life…
At this moment, no words of support help, only I could help myself. Just not the one I am- cheerful, kind, sympathetic. And that unknown force inside, which I always hid deep inside myself and was so afraid.But I could only save myself by letting her out . Inner demons are not always our enemies. Sometimes they can literally save our lives.
Until 2018, I spent my whole life waging war with the strong side of me. But in just one day, everything turned upside down. One day…One event... and I no longer hide my strong side
