I'm still here I know
Time passes by, and
I convince myself
You can keep going
This is nothing, just a phase,
I blame the stars & karma,
I tell myself I’m overacting
That everything is OK,
That isn’t all that darker
I shout to stay put,
Even if it drains me,
Maybe if I’m patient,
The light will reach me.
I'm still here,
I know,
I feel my flesh,
My heartbeat,
My breath...
But, these murderous months,
In this incessant anguish
I forgot where I’m at
I've been broken so many times
I’ve chunks everywhere
And on every attempt
Of putting myself together
I just shatter the scraps
I just make my feets bleed.
I'm still here
I know
I feel joy,
And my cigarette’s smoke
Get into my lungs
The smell of coffee
The petrichor
I’m loosing the strength,
the desire,
the spark
I feel like I'm turning off,
I feel less alive.
I'm still here I know
But it's like it's not.
I just feel like I exist
While sun and moon are taking rounds.
May my life be given back?
Camila de Leon x Shill Water
